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Friday, December 21, 2007

my 102nd post.
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i truly absolutely really very hate tat guy in this family who is born after me. who is now in sec 2 gg to sec 3 in a matter of weeks. who is "educated" in woodlands sec which i personally tink the school is like skola taik. (no offense to those who wana stand upright for the school- just a personal comment). who is considered my family. who is VERY ughhhh
i dun even wana consider him my brother. like oh m goodness the amount of hatred i have towards him is sooo unbearable tat i feel like kiling him. or in an's words, put-a-bomb-in-his-mouth-and-just-blow-him-up. yes tats how much i hate him. i cant even see his face. like ewww. i HATE him la k. get it.

like effing shit. always out of the house wit useless frens of his. pls la, even his frens have no respect towards their elder (im considered their elder). like shit. always outside doing god-knows-what. imagine la tday since 12 o'clock in the afternoon he went out till now at 1030pm. like wth la. no need to come back home also can wat. at 2 asked him to come back home cos i have to go np, he said okok. but WTFS is he saying okok for wen he wasnt doing wat he was suppose to do.

and i cant go my np bcos of him. eff. ughh im so pissed now dat i can just break down anytime. actually i broke down aedy. wen his fren came here and asked the 2 lil kids for the bicycle keys. see! he dun even wana take himself. like eff. and luckily i was talking wit an on the fone and he, wit his ever lame jokes and never ending disturbs managed to make me larf.
den now, he reached home aedy, den wana go and eat. me, being evil (if u tink so) asked him to cook the rice himself. and save watever left for papa later. pls lor, if like since just now he can survive outside den at home wana eat. like kanasai.

den he dun feel lke eating aedy, he went his room and stay there doing i-dun-even-wana-know-wat. instead of bathing and solat-ing. like effing shit sia. URGHHH. and mama was like scolding2 him. den at last i also kena. lagi like shit. innocent sia me. wth la. k dat nemind. i dun blame mother. mothers are like that (agreed?).

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k now lets forget about that.
i wana say. i really truly absolutely very want to go haji. like im serious kay. fer the past few days i watched national geographic channel den they show tis documentary about the hajj. ahhhh it feels so nice tat i wana be a part of dem. all the sincere hearts going as one. and there's alot of people sehh over there. like REALLY TRULY ABSOLUTELY alot laa. it just feels nice. seeing the different stages of the haji. i wana go soon can? like the next 5 years or after i get a downpour of money of course. haizz.

ive been wanting to go since last time lor. i even dreamt of it la. i went wit mama. den yesterday i stayed the whole day wit atuk (aka my bf) . and we talked about his experience there. and the way he said, he really is expecting me to go. like ahhhhhh is tis wat u call niat? tat i really truly absolutely wana go.

but of course la, i must get myself right ferst. like even the 5 basic prayers also, sometimes i gt skip. haizzz. bad person. i know. but alaah u all also gt rite. tat SOMETIMES. haha

and azri stop it wit. "go ask the control station how much u need to pay for the ez-link to go mecca. and how to go there"
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tats all. tmr silat. FINALLY. IM GOING OUT. FOR A REAL MRT RIDE. AND hopefully they have plans after training. like go somewhere cool. HOPEFULLY.

LOVElife @ 10:27 PM