its my story.

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Thursday, October 30, 2008

" saudari, saudari nak pergi mane?"
errrrrrrr pergi sekolah. knape eh?
"nak berkenalan dgn saudari boleh?"
*freaked out**heart beating EXTREMELY fast**said this sentence in one sec* ahhhhhhhhh sorry da lmbt nak pergi skola. bye.
"eh saudari, marilah tukar nombor, jadi kita boleh berkenalan. saudari! saudari!"
*by this time, i have walked very fast**with my heart beating like the bullet train*
he followed! from behind!!!!!!!

*heart beating twice the bullet train's speed*
luckily!
saw my classmates and i quicky grabbed her arm.
and the rest of the class was behind me.

saw my freaked out face and asked what happened.
i was saved.

i was saved.

i was saved.

i swear i was abt to cry.

THAT was crazy.
nuff said.

ok back to photos.

"eh, aku mcm budak madrasah seh pakai tudung gini. dots."

so i was at fanah's the other day.
she freaked out knowing her exam is starting the next day and she msged me
so i decided to pay her a visit. from 5 to 930pm.
okay, so mayb tat wasnt a visit.
a stay more likely.

so i was bored.
resulted in those pics.
didnt wana engage her to talk to me though
she needs to study. so yeah.

hung out with the little kids watching shrek 3 and alvin and the chipmunks.

:)

at town. taka garden.

mcm the background is the KLCC.
hah.

he's trying REALLY hard to make his face rounder than me.
he failed.

triple chin.
tsktsk.

he poked my eye.
serious.

and this is for azri.
50% off.
19.90 before discount.

and today is thursday.
tv night.
and!

cant for saturday!
silaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttttt
alot of hugging i presume.
<3

and high school musicaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal
alot of smiles i predict.
:)

and i love the boyfriend.
more than ever.
do you know that?:)

LOVElife @ 9:51 PM

photoblog
Tuesday, October 28, 2008

let this just be a photoblog.
cos i think. i have no words to say.
no.

this was yday.
went out wit the family.
while watching grease inside the lorry.

wooooh
so we went imm.
at the last hour.
yes, at 10pm.

den had late dinner. and hanafi "kak, petik gambar ahh"
so tat resulted in these.

and this. is the night of a saturday.
watched the coffin.
omg. the show like sucks lei.
not nice at all lor.
dun understand also.

den the ghost like not THAT scary.
(but i did covered my eyes with my jacket though)
so, it was not considered the first scary movie in a cinema with the boyf experience.
(i wouldnt wana watch a scary movie with him though cos he seemed to be more occupied eating his popcorn and pulling down the jacket which i used to cover my eyes with -_-)

mainpoint : $20 wasted.

so the morning of tat saturday was spent in ubin.
with the all-chinese CIs except for another 2 malay girls.
but they wont be going to be wit me. so, it does matters.

oh and i just doesnt seem to get hot.
no, in that hot blistering morning sun. with a long sleeve shirt.
i even covered my head with my towel.
its not hot.
in fact, it will be hotter if i took out the towel.
and pple ard me were fanning and rolling their sleeves and drinking their water like they have been there longer than me.

ironic.

so, yeah i had pics from the bumboat only.
cos apparently everyone got stressed up inside the campsite.
-_-

and that,
was my first time standing outside.
of the bumboat.
the feeling of being a CI.

woah.

so this was taken at a busstop in yishun.
we bought friendhip band strings from a shop on the way there.
and i just re-lived my secondary school days when once friendship bands were the IN thing and we will buy the strings and will do it in class. until the teacher scold us to keep it away.

oh wait, or was it primary school?
hmm

so his was green.
and mine red and yellow. i know. anger.

oh but have i told you?
i actually forgot how to do. really.
so i looked up at youtube.
and i managed.
elated. really.

"Thank u sayang! i like ur determination sweety..;)"

^^

and he just looked gay wit that shirt.
serious!

and i had a free chicken foldover meal today.
:)
oh aka the healthiest food from mac.

haha!

okay la. just making myself feel better right. tsk.

okay. and i know. mizan is sweet.
hmph.
wait till its ur bday. lets see who's sweeter.
hmph.

:)
<3

okay. im out.

oh and school sucks lor.
so difficult la the subj.
can die!

LOVElife @ 9:20 PM

randdddddom
Friday, October 24, 2008

random pictures.

oh and im sooo freaking tired.
and i can speak french
and im in the middle of watching saw 2
and im in need of sleep
and im suppose to re-do our proposals
and i got a birthday present from emily just now
and i have a new gang called "geng hari raya"
and i still love the lily flower bouquet that i got
and im not ready for madrasah exam
and tmr i have to be in ubin early in the morning
and i am uploading pictures in the boyf's frenster
and azri is enrolling his name for car lisense tmr
and i have no money
and i really wana have a makeover studio photoshoot
and i hate not being able to sleep.

goodbye.
i cant wait for 1st November 2008.

and of course, i miss you. terribly.
ilyb

LOVElife @ 7:38 PM

STRESS
Thursday, October 23, 2008

ARGHHHHH

I AM SOOOOOOOO FREAKING STRESSS!!!
2 MORE WEEKS!
2 MORE FREAKING WEEKS!

AND THE PROPOSAL IS DUE IN 30MINS TME!
AND GUESS WAT!

WE'RE STILL STUCK!
gaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i HATE being the camp co-coordinator!
and im efffffing sleepy and tired. and sick.

ugh!

and im sad. cos 221008 seems to be just another date for them.
people i expected to rmbr didnt rmbr at all lor!!!!!!!
:(
SEDIH habes okay.

I MISS YOU!

LOVElife @ 11:29 PM

18th!

alright.
so i turned 18 yday.

dreeeeaaaadful
cos why?
it sound toooooooooooooo old!!
gahhhhhh

hello, im liyana and im 18.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
eighteen eighteen eighteeeeeen

okay, looking at the brighter side.
mayb, liscence.
and wat? m18 shows.
tats it lor.

smoking.clubbing.drinking.no more underage sex.
not a big deal.
cos i wont do them anyways.

the only thing that i looked forward to was the plan the boyf has planned out for me.
let me tell you.
he's the sweetest.
really.

so okay, he fetched me to sch.
FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!!
this sem at least.

so classes as usual.
den after sch, i went home.
and changed. to my present nad gave me. HAHA.
its a nice dress.
so i wore ahh.
k, bau kedai. hah

:)

and we proceeded to..........................................

"a place where both of us wanted to go" -the boyf.

HENDERSON WAVES!!!!!!!!!!

k, finally tau.
seriously. we've been longing to go there since forever.
and he planned out everything
thanks laaarling.

but omg.
i tell you.
it was sooo nice tat it was drizzling at tat time cos the journey WALKING is soooooooooooooooo

LONG!!!!

trust me, the bridge is soooooo far.

its like 19 rounds of stadium ah. serious.
and by the time we started walking, it was maghrib.
and without any living souls, and tress all ard.
i got freaked out.
i asked him to on the azan. haha

seram sia!!!
but alhamdulillah. no sightings or posessions(??) happened.
hah

so after like ONE HOUR WALKING!!, i finally saw the wooden structures!
i shrieked.
really shrieked in excitedness. and hugged him.
okay, unnecessary info. but yea, its just so........

nice. u know. so...
glad tat we finally reached the place tat we wanted to go.
after tat lonng road tat seems to lead nowhere.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its so cool :) :) :)

and fanah called just in time wen we reached.
and again, shrieked to her in glee.

:)

abe, da excited2.
the boyf pulak ask me to "go far far away. i need to setting"
hah

okay so, went FAR FAR away from him.
and got fanah to call me again.
so, lucky! to have accompany.

after like 8 mins.
(dun ask why 8, i just felt tat its more than 5 mins but less than 10. heh)
this was wat i was surprised with.

the candles was supposed to be shaped inheart. i tink. hah
alaaah considered nice job la tu, in 8 mins.

hahahah

:)

i was

SPEECHLESS.

i dun even know wat to say except

"awak jahat!! why are u so sweet? u are sooo evil!!"
and i repeated tat over and over and over again.

i love you okaaaay.

and im sooooo happy wen i see flowers.
so. tat explains the smile.

my face is not ber minyak okay.
its wet.
no, not living in denial. serious.

the flower.
LILY.

just as i wanted.
he couldnt be sweeter.
okay, he could.

and tat was prima deli's truffle.
and besides the flowers, he got me a skirt.

WHICH i wore the next day, today.
and got alot of pple asking where i bought it from.
cool.

"nice skirt"
and even emily said she wanted to buy it at the first place.
cool ehh

so okay, after eating the cake, ape lagiiiiiiiiii

photo taking laa
haha

a total of 110 pics were taken.
cool kapeeee

and i was the photographer of the day
cos apparently.
the boyf's photography skills suck.

haha

oh, gtg.
i'll update more later.

ps. i hate hafiz.

LOVElife @ 4:27 PM

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

ive made it private.
cos

some makcik2 kpo had been telling mama abt the pics i took la
and asked her abt mizan.
like wth.
no life.
abe anak2 die, die tak tau.
pls lor, i have came across many of mama's frens who posted pics wit their boyf lor.
and some hugging2 somemore la. asshole seh.
den wana complain abt me. tsk

so, yea, watever to tat.

sat and sunday was awesome.
have i mentioned?
it was awesome.
my first time wit dedel and and i tink he's okay.
i had fun. yes, no doubt.
they are my bunvh of pple wat.
of course i had the awesome-est fun ever.

:)

school is nice too.
oh today i talked to saifuddin. this new kid.
it was nice. he's so friendly.

and school was yea, okay.
still the same. emily was there. and blaaaaahhhhhhhh

hmm i dunno wat to wear for tmr.
school i mean,
yea, not like its a special day or what.
but, seriously, i just dunno wat to wear.
dots.

oh and bringing laptop and using it in class is such a chore lor.
omg.
i soooo prefer hardcopy.
gahhhhh
even john thought so too.
stupid ahh.

something slipped out of my mind.
shit.

oh, its soo stressful to be the camp coordinators i tell u.
its soo frustrating.
have to think of alot of stuff.
felt like giving up lor.
its just so time consuming and energy draining.
and guess wat la. its just 3 weeks away till the big day.

and i sooo dun want any cock ups
omgggggg
i hate this situation.

im sooo not gg to do this anymore in the future man.

im not looking forward for tmr. but at the same time, i am
get it?

im off.

i wana be with you.
im not mad at you, im never mad at you.
i love you.
lets see if u have smthg planned out for me
cos if u dun, emily will be gg out wit me.
i love you awak.
and i miss you badly.
i miss you so much.
yes, i did cried
can u feel how much i missed you?

LOVElife @ 6:37 PM

the boyf
Monday, October 20, 2008

oh how much i miss him.

he has been spending time wit work. and we have not been fated to meet recently.
gosh.

:(
i miss u la awak. :(

LOVElife @ 12:57 PM

Friday, October 17, 2008

today was awesome.

:)
i duno why.
i love school.
okay, mayb not school.
but the emily.

oh and mayb its cos we haven really start studying and doing the real tutorials.
hah

so, yeah the first week is enjoyable.

taken during the last class.
the teacher is nagggggging
abt the first lesson.
the introductory tutorial.
as if we haven attend any before. haiyo.

and goshhhh
i soo cant wait for tmr lah!

reaaaaly tak sabar lor!
alamak den i haven study for madr.
shits. okay2 study now.
oh shit!

but i dun have the book!
alaaamaak
die die dieeeee

last min copy la besok nampaknyaaaaaaa
:(

till then, off for survivor.

i just wana say this to you.
i just feel like saying this.
i miss you alot.
seriously.
and saya CINTA kamu.
u know tat rite?
i miss you.
:'(
i seriously miss you. eventhough we are msging now.
yes, i miss you.

LOVElife @ 10:44 PM

:)
Thursday, October 16, 2008

thank you, for the tags.
it made me wana have my second break down.

so, yes. i settled everything.
wit aisyah and hakim.
broke down heavily in front of them.
inside library lagi, dgn hingus all.
omg, sungguh unglamourous lor.
hah

so i promised hakim, i'll go on sunday.
but at 3.
will be going wit him.
we'll see how it goes.

isa gave me a surprise msg just now.
we talked, a while.
but yeah, i managed to hide.
but haiyaa. finally i luahkan at hakim.
so okay, zaf, dun be sad. i cried seh wen i read ur msg u sent at my hp.

:(

and i read ain's post like thrice.
and im so touched.

but seriously, was it me?
who went over sensitive?
hmmmmm
okay, idk.

lets just hope i wont cry on sunday.
i love you guys, u know tat rite?

:(

so sch was okay.
i was nearly late!
luckily the lecture is 1010, so tat means i have until 1020
and i clocked in at 1015.
phew!

today, got ready in pink. just cos natdear asked me to.
and look wat happened now?

none.
nothing turned out.
sedih nak mampos okay.

:(

haiz.

but on the brighter side, i WAITED FOR THE BOYF, FOR ONE HOUR.
tats wat u get to willingly wait.
instead of 2 hours, its just one hour.
alhamdulillah.

so, there we were, in the lib and thinking wats our next plan will be.
omg, i cant stop looking at him.
its been ages! since we met.
okay, not ages, but it seems like it!
hah

so we ate!

mcm nthg else we can do. hah
cos like, we have this thing abt spending money on food is better than spending for anything else.
hah

GOSHHHH! I FEEL LIKE EATING LEI. SERIOUSLY!!
BUT I PROMISED MYSELF! NOT TO EAT ANYMORE!!!
ITS HARD, I TELL YOU.
I JUST WANA MUNCH SMTHG.
I WANA EEEAAAAATTTT!!
aiyah, depression already la.

:(

french was unexpectedly boring.
cos of the teacher laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
bad choice of teacher.
gahhhhhhh
i hate tat class.

but somehow, the students managed to make it lively.
cos we seriously repeat every french word tat came out of his mouth.
hah
but omg la!
the ica is difficult lor
so many role plays for french
and!!

we have to choose a french name for ourselves and
in tat class, we have to call each other using our french name tat we chose
how cooool!! is tat?!

i tink its really cool lor!
i'll choose the really cool one.
hah

hmmm
so okay, tmr friday.
and i sooo cant wait to meet the boyf la
the few hours just now is sooooo not enuf lor.

and saturday!
LAGGGGIII!!!! CANNOT WAIT
jalan raya wit evg! heh

and sunday, omg.
madr exam. haven even start studying ahh
arab somemore. sioooooowwww

im chatting wit carolina
and he is fucked up wit his boyf.
haizz
this is wat u get if u have an ns boyf.
the time spent wit u will forever be not enough and fights will always occur on how the time shld only be spent wit the gfs wen u have the 2 days break.
well, the gfs only need the boyf's attention wen they are out.
obviously. cos they will soo be missing them for tat 5 days.
haizz

and azri is not wearing songkok on saturday.
and im like, soooo tak puas hati lor.
the boys these days like dun bother to wear the songkok for hari raya this year.
tats wat i observed anyway.
sedih kan?

I WANT FOOOOOOD!!!!
:(
miserable seh. tak boleh makan.

but wana lose weight mahh
omg, i feel like cring now.
just cos im soo stressed.
nak makan, tapi takot makin gemok.
alaaaamaaaaaaak
ni sume the boyf's fault la.
so kecik for wat? make me look so big only. tsk

k, i need to pee.
bye!

ily no matter how much sweeter i am.
ily tats why i did wat i did.
ily. get it?

LOVElife @ 9:49 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

i swear, i dun wana stay after tat lift incident.
i swear i was abt to break down in tat lift itself.

sometimes, jokes can be overboard.
and i thought, just now did.
i felt hurt?

wen im quiet, they will be asking if smthg is wrong wit me.
if im noisy, they will hate me.
okay so.....
hmmmmm
wat am i suppose to do?

and tat incident wasnt even purposely.
i just couldnt control it, yknow.
and all they did, was poke fun.
okay, once or twice, im sooo fine with it.
but not until wat happened in the lift.
i swear it was hurting.

made up my mind.
wont be going for sunday.
sorry ain.

mayb, we really were not suppose to be. a clique.
ugh i dont know.
:(

on the other hand,
tmr.
date wit nat baby.
and fauzin fetching me from school.
how great is tat?

yday, helmi said he miss me.
and today, fauzin.
woaaah so good.
and fauzin missed me terribly until wana send me to see nat dear.
we'll see how it goes.

:)

LOVElife @ 8:41 PM

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

i'll start.
with the most important shout out ever.

yes, see tat preeeeeeety little lady up there?
hot eh?
today she turned 17!
sweeeeet seventeeen.
she's sweet already. before or after 17.
heh

:)
so here u go, nurul natasha bte rudy shahril.
happy birthday dearest.
enjoy ur 17th years being in this world.
and may all ur decisions u made in this lifetime be a fruitful one.
im sad about today, but i shall wait for thursday.
ily baby.

:)
thursday my turn!
hee

okay. so now, lets learn how to eat garlic bread.
:)

first!

you have to look at it, make sure its really a garlic bread.
hah

den!

u have to open ur mouth big2.
must be bigger den the bread, if not it cannot fit in.
see tat space between the mouth.
yes, tats the way.

next!

you have to chew.
please, wit ur mouth close
pple wouldn't wana know wats in ur mouth anyway.

moving on!

yes, licking the fingers will enhance the flavors in ur mouth.
it will make the food more delicious.
make sure u lick it.

okay!

after tat, if u find difficulty swallowing.
remember!
drink water.
yes, it helps.
it also helps to quench ur thirst. if ure thirsty.

and den!

continue wit biting.
remember, open adequate amt of mouth space.
not too big and not too small.
:)

oh! and dun do this!

guess wat is this person doing?
yes, he is digging his asshole.
and no, pple, u are not suppose to do this wen ure eating.
bad example. bad bad example.

instead, u must!

continue chewing.
okay.

repeat steps 1 till the end to finish up ur food.

:)

okay fine, im bored.
dots.

school was fine. okay.
it was BEST! cos emily is there.
but boo! cos the rest of my classmates are sooooo into groups.
alot of drama and behind stories and back stabbings i tell you.
yes, tats marketing class for you.

and omg, the subjs are getting more and more tough!!
just one look in the lecture notes, and im soooo sure of my fate.
more maths.
more calculations.
more chances of me dying.
okay, maybe not.

so, tmr.
silat is gg to resume lightly.
not officially, cos officially is on 1st nov.
well, better off start lightly.

and i cant wait for sat and sunday ehhhhh!

and now, im off to copy the madrasah qns and anwers for them who needs my help.
hmmm i shld make them pay.

oh and the purpose of this pic is the moon
the very nice full moon

:)
ya la ya laaa
i know, my face also like moon.
very big!
bigger than him also riteee
nemind.
soon, it will reduce abit.
i promise.
abit oni ahhhh
can wat.

k, bye.

sacrifices is all it takes babeh.
and yeah, im disappointed.

LOVElife @ 10:54 PM